"The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaimed that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed." (Isaiah 61:1 - NLT)

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Feb. '12

Renewed

Yesterday was the most emotional day of my life, woke up with a lot of broken pieces of hair then I got a bald spot. I was in a state of “depression” because it was very emotional for me to handle. I told my younger sister, when I did I crawled up in bed and started to burst out in tears. But she comforted me said” Cheek you are beautiful, your not going to be like everyone else who loses there hair from chemo, you have huge blue eyes and your beautiful”. Hearing what she was telling me was comforting and knowing that she is there with me and supporting me. My relationship with her has grown these past month since I have been home. We have been spending a lot of time together; nap time, tea time, lunch dates, long talks and laughter. My relationship with her was always good but I feel this time of suffering we have grown. I feel so blessed to have cheek (stefani) in my life. 

Then at night my mom came home from work, she could tell that something was bugging me. I know that cheek helped me in the morning but I still felt down. I cried to her and she prayed for healing. Then a few hours later my dad said”candace, I want to see the bald spot, I broke down in tears, I cried in my dads arms for a good 10 to 15 minutes. I heard him whisper to me”candace, you are so strong, you have been through so much in your life. We are going to make it. You are not going through this alone. This is huge in my life, going to my dad and crying in his arms. There was a lot of hurt between my dad and I but God has restored our relationship. I can honestly say, I love him and our relationship is being resorted. I am blessed to have him, also just knowing that He is with me. Taking off of work just to be with me getting Iron therapy and chemo. Also to travel to the many doctors appointments, I can tell that he loves me very much. He is right by my side. 

Taking a semester from school, relationships are being restored. I see the work of God more and more in my life and family. Sometimes, someone in our life lives can hurt us in a deep way, where we think we can never forgive them, that person will never change. I had the same thoughts but God renewed my heart and mind. He changed my dad and he is still changing him. I am so thankful for what God is doing and is continuing to do. 

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